disturbing fact

Life has never been settling even since the day i was born.

Funny thing is, i get many females coming to me telling me how females should let theyre male partners flirt because they ultimately only love on which is you.

Kinda saddens me. No, it reali hurts. A friend of mine told me that i shd just let "him" be and by now i should be use to it already... Seems like we women have stooped really low if someone can come out saying stuff like that.

I want to cry but i'm really tired to cry. I want to build up my courage and leave but the women's heart is not meant for shit stuff like that.

Don't go trample on a heart that once loved you. OMG is this karma. yea maybe itself.

ahhh....

fuck life....

Why don't?

The Chinese see things rather oddly, or is it just a default in the humans?

The much speculated news these days circulates around GongLi's ( chinese actress ) decision to become a Singaporean and abandoning her mothership.

Many condemn the poor lady but very few bother to ask...

"All traitors will be nailed to history's mast of shame. We should resolutely reject any further contact with such people," said in a chat forum on the popular portal Sohu.com.

"Why doesn't anyone ask why people want to emigrate? We see one Chinese person after another take US citizenship," one person said on Sohu. "Why don't we see Americans taking Chinese citizenship?"

I totally understand how she feels right now, this very moment. It's really sad and tiring to hear criticisms with no apparent understandings to the situation. But, SO WHAT? We're all dying to fight the society to be glamarous and classy but we are always sub-consciously overshadowed by our barbaric mannerism.

All i need is someone from my kin-gang to ask "why did she leave, she had everything here. Money, maid, food, and whatever she wants. If she goes out there to that cruel world, she's gonna have to start learning how to do her own chores, how to have a proper diet. She's gonna have to put all her sleeping habits aside, all her tennis urges and her princess attitude... Why, why the decision."

Well I've ever "e-argued" with an aunty over the email... I told her, why is it that when i leave home i'm the murderer. Why do you have to give me a death sentence when you've not gathered enough evidence? And, as expected, she said "how i know you, thats only for you to know, i don't need to know that."

It really pisses me off when someone instantly judge something. Yes, the culture's partly to be blamed. "you never disown or be rude to one who'd once looked after you." FYI, i moved through many homes of perfect families, there may be even some i have no recollection of.

So if Cinderalla's step mom continues the torture shdn't had she found prince charming, Cinderalla has to continue the menacing life? I'm not saying i'm pretty ol' innocent Cinderalla. I have my naughty moments too, but the idea's there.

If only someone asked....

UNJUST...

when is it going to be my turn?

The unjust in life is just...

WADAFARK?

Just when i thought i've landed onto a fairytale job... Shrek's fairy-god-mother, Cinderella's step-mother and the big bad wolf slowly creeps out. FARKING SHIT. It's always the farking case... When you think you've jumped in for a slam dunk, the god-damn referee blows his farking whistle. CCB.

You know how terrible it is when you are in no position for new ideas (ok, yes the taokay says she wants more ideas from you, but when you provide those ideas, she just either has really bad memory or literally no memory and says neah, those ideas cannot work). When you are the middle person trying to satisfy everyone under the same labouring roof? Farking hell, if seriously i can satisfy all these non-communications, misdirections i can be GOD already. I'm not trying to be rude, but it's darn stupid. What i hate most is doing extra work.

PEOPLE, PLEASE COMMUNICATE BE'COS I AINT DOING EXTRA WORK.

Really, i have no extra strenght to satisfy everyone. It's so darn fucked up. FUCK...

tata for now...